My best friend,
You are kind, you are smart,
You are happy and fun.
I am lucky to have you,
And you'll be there forever.
My girlfriend,
You are so sweet and loving;
I'll never get tired of you.
You are my sweetie, my angel,
I want to be with you forever.
My protector,
You never leave my side,
Even in the darkest of times.
You give me shelter and warmth,
And take care of me forever.
My "mommy",
You are always there for me,
To help me and care for me.
You tell me what's right and wrong,
I know you'll love me forever.
My little girl,
You mean the world to me,
With a smile that brightens my day.
You are wonderful and adorab
Look at all the lives you took.
Look at all the pain.
Look at all the tears you've caused,
And the damage that remains.
Can't you see you've done no good?
All you've done is harm.
You never seem to be aware
Of all the lives you've scarred.
I'm begging for your acceptance,
Or at least a little respect.
I'd appreciate any efforts
To fix all that you've wrecked.
Your name is homophobia.
All your words cause pain.
If you want to say something vile,
Please, just abstain.
It was missing.
You were missing.
The piece of my life
That I needed the most.
But all these pieces
Are scrambled around.
You and I, we were happy,
But we're losing all that we had.
And now all I'm left with
Is a foggy memory.
Everything has gone wrong
And it's tearing us apart.
Sweet words turned to arguments,
Laughter turned to tears,
Our long talks turned to meaningless conversation,
And my heart turned to pieces.
Our relationship, it's fragile.
It's made of glass,
And it has been shattered to pieces.
We must rebuild our broken love.
Please, no matter what it may take,
Help me fix us.
I see you in my dreams,
And I feel you in my heart,
I hear you in my thoughts,
And you fail to escape my mind,
But nothing can compare
To truly being in your presence.
Everything, literally everything,
Is wonderful about you.
Your gaze, it captures me,
And makes me never want to look away.
Your voice, it's always the very first sound
That I wish to hear each morning.
Every time I'm wrapped in your arms,
I want to stay there forever.
The many moments I've spent with you
Were the best ones I've ever had.
And the nights you've stayed up with me
Meant more to me than anything.
Your honesty and forgiveness
Is something I can alw
I'm sick of all this crying,
And hiding who I am.
I can't live a normal life,
And it's all because of you.
Your words, they hurt.
They bring me true pain.
But I'll suffer through them
If it means I can be with her.
I'm different, that's for sure.
But why isn't that okay?
You can hate me,
You can hurt me,
You can treat me like trash,
But you can't change me.
I would like to live my own life,
So please, just let me.
I am a girl,
She is a girl,
And I am proud to say
That I love her.
I'd pick up a knife
And drag it across my skin.
My wrists, my arms, and my life
Are all scarred.
You told me to stop,
But not once did I listen.
This was my punishment
For being who I am.
I stare down at my arms every day
With regret.
It is impossible to hide
What I have done.
My scars constantly remind me
Of the hurt I've caused us both.
For you, I am stopping.
I'm finished.
I'm through with it forever.
Just for you.
Don't worry,
You're not who you think you are.
You're not selfish,
You're not mean,
You're not unattractive,
You're not worthless,
And you're certainly not a bad friend.
Don't worry,
You really are a good person.
You're selfless,
You're nice,
You're beautiful,
You're helpful,
And you're an amazing friend.
Don't worry,
You're not alone.
I will be there for you,
I will listen to you,
I will never judge you,
I will help you,
And I will be your friend.
Don't worry,
I love you.
No, I'm Not Asleep by ihaveafurrypotato, literature
Literature
No, I'm Not Asleep
I am lying here, awake,
Trying to clear my thoughts.
It's past 1 in the morning,
Yet I'm still not tired.
I close my eyes and try to sleep,
But my attempts fail every time.
Instead I hear unwanted thoughts
That won't stop invading my mind.
Once I finally drift
Into unconsciousness,
Morning will come
In the blink of an eye.
That's when I will begin another day
Of my dreadful life.
The day will drag on,
Passing ever so slowly.
I keep to myself
And try not to think
About how much I hate this.
It all goes on
With the continuous stress
And the deprivation of sleep.
I don't choose this.
It isn't my fault.
I cannot escape
Th
Searching for Happiness by ihaveafurrypotato, literature
Literature
Searching for Happiness
I have always been that one girl;
The one who sits in the back,
The one who never talks,
And the one that everyone judges.
It seems that no one takes the time anymore
To get to know a person.
Except those who matter.
I do not have the best life,
I do not have everything I want,
I am not perfect,
But I do have hope.
I do have few who care for me.
I do not care if I am different.
I do not care what anyone thinks.
I am myself and I can not be changed.
I always thought I had the worst life possible.
I now know that happiness is always existent.
It is waiting for me.
All I have to do is find it.
You are the one that I can count on.
I can tell you anything and you will listen.
You are the only one who understands,
And the only one who ever cared.
You see when I am hurting and you try to help.
You bring more light into my day.
Please know it is true
That I could never do this without you.
I'm sorry.
I have screwed up,
I have said mean things,
And I have made it all worse for you.
I am the cause of your pain,
And for that I am truly sorry.
To a friend that has listened
And stayed with me.
One who eases some of the pain
Slowly but surely.
I would just like to say thank you.
Thank you for everything.
You should not hav
My best friend,
You are kind, you are smart,
You are happy and fun.
I am lucky to have you,
And you'll be there forever.
My girlfriend,
You are so sweet and loving;
I'll never get tired of you.
You are my sweetie, my angel,
I want to be with you forever.
My protector,
You never leave my side,
Even in the darkest of times.
You give me shelter and warmth,
And take care of me forever.
My "mommy",
You are always there for me,
To help me and care for me.
You tell me what's right and wrong,
I know you'll love me forever.
My little girl,
You mean the world to me,
With a smile that brightens my day.
You are wonderful and adorab
Look at all the lives you took.
Look at all the pain.
Look at all the tears you've caused,
And the damage that remains.
Can't you see you've done no good?
All you've done is harm.
You never seem to be aware
Of all the lives you've scarred.
I'm begging for your acceptance,
Or at least a little respect.
I'd appreciate any efforts
To fix all that you've wrecked.
Your name is homophobia.
All your words cause pain.
If you want to say something vile,
Please, just abstain.
It was missing.
You were missing.
The piece of my life
That I needed the most.
But all these pieces
Are scrambled around.
You and I, we were happy,
But we're losing all that we had.
And now all I'm left with
Is a foggy memory.
Everything has gone wrong
And it's tearing us apart.
Sweet words turned to arguments,
Laughter turned to tears,
Our long talks turned to meaningless conversation,
And my heart turned to pieces.
Our relationship, it's fragile.
It's made of glass,
And it has been shattered to pieces.
We must rebuild our broken love.
Please, no matter what it may take,
Help me fix us.
I see you in my dreams,
And I feel you in my heart,
I hear you in my thoughts,
And you fail to escape my mind,
But nothing can compare
To truly being in your presence.
Everything, literally everything,
Is wonderful about you.
Your gaze, it captures me,
And makes me never want to look away.
Your voice, it's always the very first sound
That I wish to hear each morning.
Every time I'm wrapped in your arms,
I want to stay there forever.
The many moments I've spent with you
Were the best ones I've ever had.
And the nights you've stayed up with me
Meant more to me than anything.
Your honesty and forgiveness
Is something I can alw
I'm sick of all this crying,
And hiding who I am.
I can't live a normal life,
And it's all because of you.
Your words, they hurt.
They bring me true pain.
But I'll suffer through them
If it means I can be with her.
I'm different, that's for sure.
But why isn't that okay?
You can hate me,
You can hurt me,
You can treat me like trash,
But you can't change me.
I would like to live my own life,
So please, just let me.
I am a girl,
She is a girl,
And I am proud to say
That I love her.
I'd pick up a knife
And drag it across my skin.
My wrists, my arms, and my life
Are all scarred.
You told me to stop,
But not once did I listen.
This was my punishment
For being who I am.
I stare down at my arms every day
With regret.
It is impossible to hide
What I have done.
My scars constantly remind me
Of the hurt I've caused us both.
For you, I am stopping.
I'm finished.
I'm through with it forever.
Just for you.
Don't worry,
You're not who you think you are.
You're not selfish,
You're not mean,
You're not unattractive,
You're not worthless,
And you're certainly not a bad friend.
Don't worry,
You really are a good person.
You're selfless,
You're nice,
You're beautiful,
You're helpful,
And you're an amazing friend.
Don't worry,
You're not alone.
I will be there for you,
I will listen to you,
I will never judge you,
I will help you,
And I will be your friend.
Don't worry,
I love you.
No, I'm Not Asleep by ihaveafurrypotato, literature
Literature
No, I'm Not Asleep
I am lying here, awake,
Trying to clear my thoughts.
It's past 1 in the morning,
Yet I'm still not tired.
I close my eyes and try to sleep,
But my attempts fail every time.
Instead I hear unwanted thoughts
That won't stop invading my mind.
Once I finally drift
Into unconsciousness,
Morning will come
In the blink of an eye.
That's when I will begin another day
Of my dreadful life.
The day will drag on,
Passing ever so slowly.
I keep to myself
And try not to think
About how much I hate this.
It all goes on
With the continuous stress
And the deprivation of sleep.
I don't choose this.
It isn't my fault.
I cannot escape
Th
Searching for Happiness by ihaveafurrypotato, literature
Literature
Searching for Happiness
I have always been that one girl;
The one who sits in the back,
The one who never talks,
And the one that everyone judges.
It seems that no one takes the time anymore
To get to know a person.
Except those who matter.
I do not have the best life,
I do not have everything I want,
I am not perfect,
But I do have hope.
I do have few who care for me.
I do not care if I am different.
I do not care what anyone thinks.
I am myself and I can not be changed.
I always thought I had the worst life possible.
I now know that happiness is always existent.
It is waiting for me.
All I have to do is find it.
You are the one that I can count on.
I can tell you anything and you will listen.
You are the only one who understands,
And the only one who ever cared.
You see when I am hurting and you try to help.
You bring more light into my day.
Please know it is true
That I could never do this without you.
I'm sorry.
I have screwed up,
I have said mean things,
And I have made it all worse for you.
I am the cause of your pain,
And for that I am truly sorry.
To a friend that has listened
And stayed with me.
One who eases some of the pain
Slowly but surely.
I would just like to say thank you.
Thank you for everything.
You should not hav
I'd rather have you cry on my shoulder
than to have to cry on your casket
I want you to take my hand now
and I hope that you never let go
whisper to me all the things you want to
I'll listen to you until I'm dead and gone
cry on me
just let me see
tell me how you feel
let me know you're real
let me put my arms around you
and let you feel something new
don't try to cut away your life
I won't let you use the knife
don't poison your life away
I need you with me everyday
I know there's nothing I can say
but I need you to stay
I want you to cry on my shoulder
I just want her to let me hold her
I won't let you get any colder
I
Experts at the Fall by DreamAmongStars, literature
Literature
Experts at the Fall
You can't fly with a broken wing.
You can't dance with a broken leg.
You can't smile with a broken heart.
But you can sure fake it.
Wipe your tears away.
Look yourself in the mirror.
Bring the corners of your mouth up,
and fake your life.
And if you succeed,
no one has to see your scars.
I'm a bully.
There is this one person I can't stand.
When ever she have a bad day I never fail to make it worse.
In my opinion she is asking for it.
Her friends are worried, its amusing. Can't we all tell they don't really care?
In her parents opinion, well to have an opinion they would need to know.
She doesn't wish for her father to think of her as even weaker. Such a pansy.
I have reasons why I do it to her.
Reasons that aren't necessarily mine to share, But she hurt someone close to me.
She made them go away for a long time. It's all her fault, and I plan to make her suffer.
I will have her bleed, have her bruise, have her br
She sits in bed late at night
Next to him while he sleeps
Wondering if she made the right choice
Heart aching
Soul empty
She feels like a hollow shell of who she used to be,
As her mind races,
She remembers HER touch,
HER kiss,
HER smell,
The way it felt to kiss HER,
When she was with HER
She felt a love so strong nothing could destroy it,
When their lips met
Their hearts would both stop,
Tears filling her eyes
As she cries herself to sleep
Just like ever other night...
Mummy mummy,
I met this girl
Mummy mummy,
I know you will like her
Mummy mummy,
She's a special sort of girl
She's kind
and beautiful
She's friendly
and loving
Mummy mummy,
I know she's the one
Mummy muumy,
What's wrong
Mummy mummy,
But I know you will like her
Mummy mummy,
Please don't frown
Mummy mummy,
Please don't hate me
"I love you," she says."No, you don't..." my mind argues."Yes, she does..." my heart whispers.
"You don't need it," she says."Yes, I do.""I know..."
"Don't forget," she says."...""As if I could..."
"It's okay," she says.
"Heh, no it's not...""I hope it really is, though...."
"Goodnight," she says.
"...Goodnight...""Please... don't leave me...."
I'm sorry...
Look at her, what do you see?
A pretty face?
The one with all the friends?
Or a girl who wishes for the day to end?
Look at him, what do you see?
A smart boy?
The one who is happy always?
Or a boy who has to hide his scars?
Look at them, what do you see?
Happy people?
The ones who are loved for who they are?
Or people who hide behind their lies?
Look at me, what do you see?
A cheeful smile?
The one who laughs all the time?
Or the broken, bloodied wings which weigh me down?
Look at you, what do we see?
What don't we see?
Do we see the lie, but not the truth?
What kind of mask do you hide behind?
We all wear one.
I just now noticed that there was nothing in this little box thingy here. So I'm putting something in it. Hello all of deviantART!!! Okay, I really don't know what I'm supposed to put here . . .I like writing, although I'm not very good at it. And reading. And running. And playing the clarinet. And I'm antisocial but I don't really care. Um um um . . .yeah. I am not a very exciting person. Goodbye!!!
Yep, I'm procrastinating. As usual. I really should be doing homework, especially since it's the middle of the night. But I really don't feel like doing it. And I'm bored, so I am on deviantart! Yay! I like distractions. I think I need to learn to sleep when normal people do. But I don't really want to, so I won't. Oh great, now I'm hungry. And I don't remember if there was actually a point to this journal. Probably not, but I have nothing better to do. Guess what?! I really really do not want to go to school tomorrow! Well actually today. Dang it, that means I'm going to be in school in like six hours. I think I should finish my homework now